Do I even lift?

''Do I even lift?'' Hmmmm, if anyone asked me this at the moment my answer would currently be: I don't know, maybe, a little, like I kinda lift, I think....

I have only been doing this lifting thing for a year, and I still feel clumsy and totally not confident while doing so.Put me in an aerobics class or on a running track and I know my stuff. I go for it and I can push myself, and I even enjoy pushing myself. But with weights it's a different story, they scare me somehow. While running I can always push myself that extra kilometer, or push myself to run harder or faster, but I struggle to push through most of the last reps while lifting.

Why this is? I think it has to do with a fear of not being as strong as the ''boys''. But after thinking about this why should I care who is stronger? I go running twice a week, so I can call myself a runner. I am in the gym 5 times a week so why can't I say yeah bro I totally lift? So my challenge to myself is to stop being afraid of the weights. Pick them up, put them down and repeat. And hopefully soon I will be stronger than the boys. No wait not soon, because I kinda am already nearly just as strong as the boys. 

So what is my message? Less doubt equals more reps and higher weights which equals more awesomeness a.k.a gains.

Fearless and Strong! Do it! And if someone asks, yeah I lift bitch.